Who is going to catch you?

The room is full, the TV way to loud, bodies everywhere, kids screaming and tugging on your pants.  Your mind is racing, trying to handle everything until he walks in the room and no one else may see it but I do, because I have been there.  That look.  The faint smile that reads across [...]

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Fairy Tale #2- Jack and Rachel

I’m having a hard time getting my post out about my South Dakota trip so instead I thought I would share another story with you.  I really hate cliches.  Really hate them.  I have heard them all lately.  The whole “If it was meant to happen…” “It’ll work out in the end…” Blah Blah.  Yea, [...]

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It does just take time

There are times where I catch people looking at me funny or ask me an indirect question on the phone.  I think they are trying to gauge where I’m at in this mess of life.  They are trying to see if I’m still going to burst into tears, if I have decided that it was [...]

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It is good for the soul

I didn’t know how I was going to handle going to Wyoming.  It is where Bill is from, his family, his friends, where he grew up.  We talked a million time about us going.  About him taking me to the Teton Mountains to see if I liked them better than my New Hampshire White Mountains.  [...]

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Aiding and Abedding an Affair

Sparky,
I went out for supper tonight with Lisa. She said she owes me.  We had a margarita and sat and swapped stories.  We laughed at me and you.  I told her about the ice storm, the hotel stays and going to Jacks house.  I told her about the nights and afternoons that we would sit [...]

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To Lisa’s I go…again

It is another edition of …today I went to Lisa’s house.  Bear very rarely joins me there and found the utter chaos of 4 naughty, young boys horrifying.  She thought she was going to finally be able to play with these cute babies that would follow her around and coo at her every whim.  Instead [...]

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Monster trucks and boys

I spent the afternoon at Lisas house so she could go help move her mother.  Her older one was gone (thank god) and I was left to watch over the twins and the little one she babysits. I miss the days of being around kids.  My Mom had a home daycare when we were younger, [...]

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Oh, the Places You’ll Go!

Today was the second and last day of hell. I mean day handing out coffee samples. I did rediscover how goals should be important in ones life but you do have to jump through hoops to get there.  I remember those stressful days of studying for my license. Then there were the late nights at work [...]

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Let the optimism shine through

Two things happened this weekend that have made me realize I’m not as optimistic as I think I am.  I spent some time talking to A and some time with Lisa and her twin sister L. First things first, A. Her man on the side, that she left her marriage for, decided to come around.  She [...]

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Jealousy Strikes at midnight

This thing happened to me today.  I realized I’m jealous.  This is not normally a trait of mine, but I’m seeing it in the past few days.  What started it? Well, Bill and D are on vacation together.  The thought is making me tip toe back towards that edge again.  I watched Sex and the City tonight [...]

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