If you will excuse me I’m Scroogin it today

I’ve been feeling a bit like a Scrooge the past couple of days.  I have been surrounded by everyone at work exchanging presents and going out for lunch together while I’m left sitting at my desk punching out audits. My frustration built yesterday as one thing after another went wrong.  I couldn’t hold back the tears [...]

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The first of the family get togethers

It seems all of us in the break up, blog world are going through the same thing right now- the Holidays are kicking our asses.  I feel perfect relief when I jump on someones blog and nod my head yes through the whole things because I could have written it verbatim.  Thank God I’m not [...]

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And now I hear from the opposing team

My first week of work I was rounding up my license’s for the new boss.  I wasn’t sure about one of them and really didn’t think it was the real one.  Bill had a tendency to take care of me with all of that stuff and I was even surprised I had them in my [...]

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My last therapy session happened this week

Hell of a week for me to have my last session with my therapist right? It wasn’t this set in stone date by any means.  A few weeks ago I finished this stack of papers, or worksheets if you will, on losing someone.  Since then our time has slowed down and there isn’t much left [...]

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I just needed a quick share

I haven’t been able to write lately which I’m finding makes me a bit cranky.  I have things to pass along, and thoughts, and moments.  Whether you care to hear them, I care to share them.  But I got that whole new job thing so I spent hours shopping because, lets face it, my old [...]

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Why Didn’t I fight Harder?

Several people have asked me a question since the day Bill left.  It mainly boils down to Why didn’t I fight harder? Why didn’t I walk in his office and confront him? Demand answers. 
These are fair questions to ask.  Questions I have often asked myself actually. 
I had absolutely no idea that Bill was going to [...]

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80’s hair bands and new Sergeants

It was almost 2 weeks after Bill left and Lisa decided I needed a night out drinking and dancing.  I grew out of this a long time ago.  It was never my thing in the first place.  Loud places, woman dressed in barely there outfits, bodies against bodies….I could only handle it once a year [...]

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My list of break up help

I feel like I’m getting to a point where I can look back and send out my own advice to people going through a similar situation.  Not that it is good advice, but if nothing else something to entertain you. Im kind of stealing this idea from a friend so for more go check out Rules [...]

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I’m getting somewhere

It was a few weeks after Bill left that a friend of mine said Here is my therapist’s number, call her.  My friend had been through a similar problem but I never in my life thought seeing a therapist was something I would do.  Perhaps becoming one, but not seeing one.  But as you spend [...]

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It is the damn happy couples

The more I mull this over in my head, the more I realize there is really something bothering me from this weekend.  I didn’t realize it had that big of an effect on me till last night when I lost it.  For the first time in weeks? the tears hit me.  I think it also had [...]

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