If you will excuse me I’m Scroogin it today

I’ve been feeling a bit like a Scrooge the past couple of days.  I have been surrounded by everyone at work exchanging presents and going out for lunch together while I’m left sitting at my desk punching out audits. My frustration built yesterday as one thing after another went wrong.  I couldn’t hold back the tears [...]

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My last therapy session happened this week

Hell of a week for me to have my last session with my therapist right? It wasn’t this set in stone date by any means.  A few weeks ago I finished this stack of papers, or worksheets if you will, on losing someone.  Since then our time has slowed down and there isn’t much left [...]

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It is the damn happy couples

The more I mull this over in my head, the more I realize there is really something bothering me from this weekend.  I didn’t realize it had that big of an effect on me till last night when I lost it.  For the first time in weeks? the tears hit me.  I think it also had [...]

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Harleys and changes

It was two years ago this month that Bill’s wife called me at the office one day.  She wanted to get Bill his dream Harley for his 40th birthday in December but the funny part was she didn’t know what that was exactly.  You know, the details.  So I gave her the details that somehow I [...]

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Sleep deprivation

I’m having trouble writing during the week.  I log on to stalk read everyone elses blog to know that humans still exist but I’m completely exhausted from my lovely J-O-B.  Dustin has told me to just quit, that this monster in me comes out during the week and I tend to agree.  However, I can not [...]

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There once was someone like me, that was me

I look in the mirror these days and I hardly recognize myself.  Hell, I don’t even feel like myself.  This blog you click on and this person you read about is certainly different than she ever has been and I dont like it a lot.  Not even a little, not even at all.  Not to say [...]

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This is how the beans spill

We never really had any real way that we were going to tell our spouses.  We gave it a lot of thought but it is a hard thing to spill out.  We practiced with friends and Bill with his family.  It seemed to go well for both of us, especially him with his family.  We [...]

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Aiding and Abedding an Affair

Sparky,
I went out for supper tonight with Lisa. She said she owes me.  We had a margarita and sat and swapped stories.  We laughed at me and you.  I told her about the ice storm, the hotel stays and going to Jacks house.  I told her about the nights and afternoons that we would sit [...]

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Vegas or Cali

I was chatting with Bills nephew the other night on facebook.  He recently went to Vegas and thought perhaps that is where I needed to go…you would love it he tells me.  Thank you for that reminder.  We were planning on it.  As in, Bill thought we would need to get away from everybody and [...]

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It can’t get any worse

Today was my first official day of work….There are hardly words…Ok, so there are a lot….They are just more like 4 letter words.
I’m at my wits end. Is that how you spell wits? Fuck.
I have been my own boss, running my own business, making my own hours, calling the shots for the past five years [...]

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