No one told me chaos wasn’t a cure

For those of you who have been around for a while, remember the days when I used to say I NEED A JOB! You know, something to do with my time and to keep my mind off of Bill.  What the fuck was I thinking?  I have now filled my plate so full I have [...]

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And now I hear from the opposing team

My first week of work I was rounding up my license’s for the new boss.  I wasn’t sure about one of them and really didn’t think it was the real one.  Bill had a tendency to take care of me with all of that stuff and I was even surprised I had them in my [...]

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I made it four days

I made it four whole days.  Four days before the tears happened.  How fucking hard is it to be happy?  That is all I’m asking.  Just to enjoy what I do and be happy at the end of the day with my life.  I fucking try.  And I know I should be grateful because that is [...]

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Fairy Tale #2- Jack and Rachel

I’m having a hard time getting my post out about my South Dakota trip so instead I thought I would share another story with you.  I really hate cliches.  Really hate them.  I have heard them all lately.  The whole “If it was meant to happen…” “It’ll work out in the end…” Blah Blah.  Yea, [...]

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I bet you have a hard time walking into a room full of people…

“I bet you’ve had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah. I know that. I know what it is not to feel like your in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let [...]

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I don’t need to see his penis

I’ve mentioned Kathy a few times.  She was the secretary in the office.  The day Bill hired her he made a huge mistake.  No one had a lot of respect for her and she did a shitty job at doing her job.  She thought we were BFF’s and had no clue what personal space or [...]

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The first day on the job

Today was my first day of work/training.  I was actually nervous.  The other 6 new members started training together last week while I was visiting Mickey and they all got to know each other pretty well.  They got to know each other by way of meetings, training, pizza party and then going out to get [...]

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Dear Bill, Here’s your love letter

Bill,
I have spent a lot of time finding excuses for you out loud and to myself.  I have accepted responsibility for my actions and taken the weight of yours on my shoulders to either somehow protect you or make it easier for you.  Even though you have no clue.  It is exhausting.  I’m tired.  I [...]

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How to tell if they are having an affair

I’ve had a crappy couple past 24 hours it seems.  Not a lot of bright and shiny moments.  With all the cheating in the news I figure I could help everyone out. 
Sometimes there are the brave souls that step up and ask the “affair” questions.  Such as Where did you go to have sex? How [...]

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Vacation with the wife

Bill made this special club last year.  So that means this year he gets to go on a free trip paid by the company with spouse/sig other to one of 6 chosen spots.  While there you enjoy company gatherings with others in the elite club and enjoy the area.  I was suppose to go on [...]

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