No one told me chaos wasn’t a cure

For those of you who have been around for a while, remember the days when I used to say I NEED A JOB! You know, something to do with my time and to keep my mind off of Bill.  What the fuck was I thinking?  I have now filled my plate so full I have [...]

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And now I hear from the opposing team

My first week of work I was rounding up my license’s for the new boss.  I wasn’t sure about one of them and really didn’t think it was the real one.  Bill had a tendency to take care of me with all of that stuff and I was even surprised I had them in my [...]

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I made it four days

I made it four whole days.  Four days before the tears happened.  How fucking hard is it to be happy?  That is all I’m asking.  Just to enjoy what I do and be happy at the end of the day with my life.  I fucking try.  And I know I should be grateful because that is [...]

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The new job

I started work Monday.  My new job.  My big girl job.  My next big step.  I put my heels back on and my cute outfit and set off.  Nerves were bouncing in my stomach so bad the night before but Dustin was having none of it.  No support.  Ok, I could do this.
I was immediately [...]

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I got a job!!

I can’t believe I am going from such a horrible post this morning to this post but I have to do it and sometimes that is the way life goes. I got a job!! A career job!  I interviewed with a company yesterday that called today and said they canceled the other interviews and were [...]

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Ding Ding Man

So after battling another rough night with minimal sleep I put on my heels and headed to a job interview.  One of the very few I have had considering my pathetic, annoying, really hated lovely photography job is up at the end of this week.  Yay!  I had a good gut feeling about this place.  I [...]

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Fairy Tale #2- Jack and Rachel

I’m having a hard time getting my post out about my South Dakota trip so instead I thought I would share another story with you.  I really hate cliches.  Really hate them.  I have heard them all lately.  The whole “If it was meant to happen…” “It’ll work out in the end…” Blah Blah.  Yea, [...]

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I bet you have a hard time walking into a room full of people…

“I bet you’ve had a hard time walking into a room full of people on your own, right? Yeah. I know that. I know what it is not to feel like your in the room until he looks at you or touches your hand or even makes a joke at your expense, just to let [...]

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When the old life comes haunting

After the  speeding ticket incident one of my fellow photographers, Politically Young, obtained one herself.  While explaining the situation to me she mentioned her insurance and I don’t know what came over me.  I gave her Joey’s number.  (Joe is also here.) I didn’t honestly think she would call him.  How many times do you get [...]

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Sleep deprivation

I’m having trouble writing during the week.  I log on to stalk read everyone elses blog to know that humans still exist but I’m completely exhausted from my lovely J-O-B.  Dustin has told me to just quit, that this monster in me comes out during the week and I tend to agree.  However, I can not [...]

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