There is still something about that man

Lisa moved in with me the other night after walking out on her husband.  Then moved back to her home the next day. This happened to be the same night Dustin chose to move some of his stuff out of our place. I’ll get to everything that falls in between those sentences in a post [...]

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The first of the family get togethers

It seems all of us in the break up, blog world are going through the same thing right now- the Holidays are kicking our asses.  I feel perfect relief when I jump on someones blog and nod my head yes through the whole things because I could have written it verbatim.  Thank God I’m not [...]

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I quit men. Here is why.

A fight occurred in this household last night.  Dust made one comment and I may have flown off the handle a bit.  Let me preface this by giving you a schedule.  We have Angelena from Friday when she gets off of school till Sunday nights.  Sometimes she has things going on, like slumber parties, and [...]

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The magic of the Islands

Tomorrow the 16th will be our 3 year anniversary.  We have known each other for 9 years.  What do you do on this particular anniversary?  I’ve already questioned him on it.  Our parents and some relatives will send anniversary cards because they just don’t get it yet.  My therapist says to just call it another day [...]

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Use your words

I’ve done some evaluating in the past week on the men I have dated.  I have also spent the other part of my week fighting with Dustin.  The two go hand and hand.  I can’t for the life of me figure out why he can’t use his words.  I know- he is a guy, they [...]

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Denial- Not just a river

Something happened over the weekend.  Fury bubbled within in me and frustration came to a peak.  It all bubbled into a fight with Dustin last night.  A fight that turned into a talk about the fact that we are getting a DIVORCE and it is kinda something that should be talked about.  The last time we [...]

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Legally half is mine

The past couples days have been hard.  Hard as in I’m realizing how much I dont have.  Hard as in my life is changing daily at break neck speed and none if it seems to be for the good. I don’t feel as if I belong anywhere.  My apartment is not a home.  It is where [...]

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Go to your happy place

Yoga has been my only safe haven since all of this.  Where we only know each other in that room for an hour at night.  I know I’ll laugh a few times with them and will feel so much better by the end. 
As we did our cool down the other night our instructor walked us [...]

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Puzzle pieces for what everyone else sees

Last night we went out to eat once again.  (Yes, we eat out a lot!) There was a couple sitting a few tables over who were quite older and holding hands while waiting for their food.  They were deep in conversation. I know I’ve mentioned how much I love older couples. So cute!  But this [...]

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There once was someone like me, that was me

I look in the mirror these days and I hardly recognize myself.  Hell, I don’t even feel like myself.  This blog you click on and this person you read about is certainly different than she ever has been and I dont like it a lot.  Not even a little, not even at all.  Not to say [...]

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